I don’t want to go through life feeling this way. Fearing rejection. Fearing disappointment. Fearing failure. It’s unhealthy, and despite our rejection, failure, and disappointments, we mustn’t feel like we have failed.
As we experience suicides of public figures and also in our personal lives, we need to emphasize how important our mental well being is. We must look at the bigger picture. Imagine life being a puzzle that’s missing pieces. As we experience moments in life, we add another piece to the puzzle. It’s the bigger picture. We are not born whole. But, as life goes on, we build ourselves up to become the best version of ourselves. It’s our duty as individuals. The road will get rocky. There will be hills to climb, tornadoes, earthquakes, and life shattering moments during this journey. The challenge is to make sure that throughout those storms, we do not break. But, you cannot do it on your own. Life provides you with all of the resources you need to get through it all. Some you will have to work hard to obtain, and others will be easily accessible. Make an effort. Be kind to yourself. Seek help and guidance.
As I prepare myself for the next big step in my life, I have learned to embrace rejection and disappointment. I often prevent myself from getting too excited if something feels good- fear of something disappointing following after. It is a way to protect myself. I say ” let me not get too excited because something stupid always happens to me”. Meaning, disappointment or rejection often follows a good feeling. I’ve come to realize how unhealthy this is and unfair. It’s not fair to treat myself this way, and I am determined to fix it.
I am now on a journey to celebrate my wins despite what comes next. A win is a win, and all a part of the puzzle. Moving forward, I will celebrate myself more and stop being so hard on myself.
Protect your sanity. One day you will tell your story and it will include all of the trials and tribulations you had to experience to get where you are in life. You may even laugh and praise yourself for being so strong and capable of overcoming it all. However, you will be empowering others to push past fear, rejection, and disappointment, because on the other side, victory is awaiting. No matter how difficult your trek may be, trust, just push.
“Feed your courage, starve your fears.” –April McCallum